is okay...

one of my kalyana mitra send me this ......


HECTIC LIFE

I am out of control again
I lose my temper
I complain
I made a friend or two frustrated
I am totally beyond my limits and patience
I thought I could handle this
I never knew that it would be so difficult.

You are my friend
I don’t want to hurt you
Somehow I did not realize
That I have said too much
Music always heal my sorrow
This time
It takes more than music to regain my soul of life
To strive for a better life.

Sometimes I tempt to suicide
Sometimes I feel like screaming
Sometimes I wish I could break someone’s nose
Sometimes I really want to give up
Sometimes I really want to be like Buddha
Sometimes I run away from the truth
Sometimes I want to face them
Sometimes I hide, sometimes I don’t
Sometimes I wish for someone to save me.

Day by day
I have to face reality
Night by night
I have to reflect upon myself
Week by week
I had plenty of discrimination
Year by year
I tried to change for the better.

I was spoilt since young
My dad punishes my brothers
Even though I am always wrong
I was brought up that way
My brothers do not like it
They always scold me
Including my mum
When I turn 15
I realize of my wrongdoings
However
There are still flaws
Until I turn 16-17
I tried to change
Sadly I couldn’t.

No longer crying for no reason
But many troubles and thoughts are always in mind
Now I feel like letting out my tears
Slowly and gently rolling down the cheek
Just to look as though as it is a small matter
Inside of me, something is growing
It took me a short time
Just to notice that
It’s sorrow.

Oh, how I wish to be set free
I am tired of all the humiliation and comments
And all the things that happened to me
When will this end?
No, it will not end
It’s just the beginning.


Pei Wen dear,

there are a lot of problem tat we hv to face in life...n times where we are in the situation tat we does not wish to face but somehow or rather our life still have to move on and stay and be whoever we are....don feel guilty....u're forgiven it is b'cos u can't sense tat what mood i'm in 24 hours a day....is okay.....